It's been 3 years since I last posted anything here. That's something.
Why am I even writing this at this point is a wonder, but perhaps in hopes that those who believed in me and my art will still be around to read it.
Ever since my dad passed away my life turned into something worse than I ever imagined I would live through. I hated all my jobs, starved because we, without my dad's financial support, don't earn enough to pay all the bills and buy food. I lost almost all of my friends because I stopped being that person who had money to arrange dinners/to go out to drink a coffee. There's just no joy anymore, on anything that I do, really.
I hoped that someday, I'd get a decent job that would lead me to a peaceful life. That would've been enough, really. But what I got instead was the return of a rare disease on my liver that will get me killed in the next months/years. There's no treatment for it, only attempts of one, which means I'm being treated like a guinea pig, in and out of the hospital every single day.
But, I'm not making this journal to complain about my situation. No, not at all. I'm making this journal so that, when someone stumbles against my art for some random reason, they'll know that I'm no longer using deviantart, so that there's no point to follow me or anything.
Am I still drawing? Yes, I am, for myself only for the time being.
Will I ever upload any art here? No, I won't.
I'm actually working in a rpgmaker game with my boyfriend, and perhaps that will be the last thing I'll make, considering how much pain I feel thanks to my disease. Only time will tell how my life will go.
But even then, I will not post it here. Truth to be told, even among the support, I had my fair share of rude people and comments that I just want to get rid off.
Deviantart was a good experience thanks to some of the nice people I met here, but it just ends there. The rest was painful to go through and, as such, I'm ending my deviantart memories with this post.
Thank you to everyone who took their time to compliment my art and talk with me. I will never forget the kindness I received from you.
Listening to: Drakengard 3's Final Song